Knowing the reason doesn't impart power to bear (Depressing curiosity)

To me you said
“Who asked you to dream?
I never said that I will be your team,
And Unless I speak, I don’t mean
My acts might not be what they seem”
But how unless you conveyed could I know!!
That your acts don't mean anything to you.
That your divine touch would put me to Limbo
Melodious Christmas bells will turn in to knell
And in the stocking I will find my pass to Hell.
How on the earth could I know?

To me you said;
“Don’t ask me why,
Please Never again cry,
Explore some other sky,
Try and once again fly”
But how can I not ask why !!
For you have cut –off my wings!!
And I want to know – why?

You said
“Don’t to me, you blame
You had equal share in the game
My name shall not be subjected to flame
And I don’t feel any shame- And I don’t feel any shame”
But how shall you not suffer the blame!!
For it was you who cheated me in the game
GAME- yeah, for you it was another game mundane
But it rendered me slain-I am now just slain!!

BUT IF YOU DEMAND I WILL NOT ASK WHY.
B'coz THE ANSWER I WILL HEAR,
WILL NOT ANYWAYS IMART TO ME THE POWER TO BEAR!!